Photography in Mind: Building a new View.

I had an amazing epiphany today. Truly. I realize that the coming up here was indeed a step in building a future for myself, in that it allowed me to step so far outside of my comfort zone, that it forced growth and "survival mode" as another friend put it. I still feel some old pangs, but I honestly think that's passing now. I have on this day affirmed no longer will I dwell in the past. I will learn the lessons from it, but I will freely let it go. Move on to the future. I have a plan. So, while here I realize I am not yet strong enough mentally or spiritually to take on the task for a much larger area of change - in that there is a change coming, and I wish to be a facilitator of it, though I understand it cannot be rushed. Therefore I'm officially moving back home here in a while. I have yet to decide if I really want to risk sticking it through the winter, or if it wouldn't be better to head out sooner. There really isn't much holding me back but my own "fence posting" on what and where and all the specifics. In short, I learned I was running away from my life in Idaho. That is my home, and that is where I really want to start this change for sure. I realized the excuses I was setting for myself just compounded by moving away. I sacrificed quite a bit in hindsight, and much I realistically won't get back, but this is OK. It really is. I feel very strongly that this is the beginning of a better "me" - and by extension, those that I care for. I won't be pining or running from a future anymore. I'm going to make it.