Photography in Mind: I must start scheduling more effectively.

So, I've been working my job at Fred Meyer's, and it's been quite rough. I've also learned much about how my expectations are limiting my ability to just "let it be" - I may have indeed pushed too hard - as now I'm realizing I've lost focus temporarily, and again seek some guidance for bettering my life and by extension those that I care for. I really must wake to the fact that I am again holding on to things so strongly I'm strangling them. I don't like this feeling. I like the feeling of having a person there for me and know that they cheer me up whenever I hear from them, but I'm learning this isn't a good thing. It's encouraging entropy in myself as though I cannot get happiness on my own... and that I really don't like. The same statement keeps coming up again and again: "Love yourself, before you can ever hope to love someone else" - as I take it, that means loving and caring for myself to a degree that I wouldn't need validation, but that if it is given, I also know to graciously receive it - but not to ever take it for granted. I realize that's what I've been doing all to much lately. So, while painful, this extended break away from the person that I really feel connected to, and indeed love them spiritually, is a very good thing for growth. This growth cannot be pushed or it will wither away. I accept fully that this is a major lesson I must learn. I AM.

Also, Pictures to catch up to the 365 current will be coming much more fully now, so until I'm caught up, I'll be posting a month at a time. That said, April: